Chat W/ Egan

So once again on this Senior Project journey I stopped to see my good old mentor, Mr Egan. I had to put the pressure on him a little because he hasn't been commenting as he should, although I have seen his effort and I hope he keeps it up. Egan and I discussed my future plans for college yet again and he keeps encouraging me to stay on task and keep pushing for a positive and effective goal. I also expressed to him how I was kind of falling into the old " senioritis" but he quickly gave me sharp look that read , I think not young lady. I gave him a smile and respond, I wont fall to soon. Sitting with him made me realize that sooner than later I won't have him to run to with my educational issues nor my lifes issuse much longer. But what I do know is that i'll always have is number handy when it's an emergency.Gosh, I'm sure goig to miss that man.

Catch Up W/ Egan

Well, of course Egan and I had a great conversation/sit down as usual. I finally got to express my future plans for schooling to him , and of course he was ready to talk. I expressed to him that I was really trying to look into nursing school, but I would eventually want to return to school for what I really want to pursue, psychology. Egan then responded by telling me about Camden County College's nursing program and how it was one of the best in the state. Except the fact that the program has now been terminated and transferred to Rowans campus. But, as we further explored the opportunities I may have in the medical field, he asked me why I really wanted to go into nursing. I then explained to him that the economy is extremely rough right now so I wanted to start out with a career and job that would always be in demand, and then return to school with a good job and remain stable in life as I continued to get a bachelor's in social working. Mr. Snyder and Egan were very helpful in directing me in the right direction to further understand exactly what I wanted to do. For instance, although I never really saw myself as a nurse when Egan asked me why I wanted to go into social working, I answered because I would love to help people. He then said that I would be doing the same thing in the nursing field , but the crazy part was I never looked at it that way. Over all it was a great meeting and still has me thinking.

Connection-Inspiration

Yesterday Mr. Abrams took us on a Senior Project inspirational trip to the Lindenwold park, and although the park is right behind school it was the best trip ever. But, of course with a class trip comes an assignment , and I must say this assignment is one of his best ideas yet. See on this simple exploration Mr. Abrams wanted us to find and explain some type of connection we found in our surroundings to our Senior Project topic. I took this assignment full force excluding myself from groups and really taking the time to walk, explore my thoughts, and imagine. But, the instant I stepped foot outside I had already had my mind made up, just this walk was my connection. What I mean by that is that a walk for me is my releasing therapy. For instance, when we began our small journey I instantly thought of the old days when my anger would take a hold on me , I would immediately leave and start walking and eventually any anger I had would go away. So the got me thinking, y whole life I've created my own inner therapy because the walks that I would take was just as therapeutic of the music that I listen to to pull me through. My comfort I once thought I could only find in music , I had then found in just a simple walk. Music therapy  is now walking therapy in a sense, and I'm satisfied with my new discovery. Also, I would like to explain what the picture to the above represents. The picture shows my worst fear deep water, although it seem beautiful it is the scariest thing in the world to me. But, I must say although I am extremely terrified of the ocean and deep water, I think it is one of the most peaceful and mind blowing views known to mankind. The comparison is somewhat weird but it makes tons of sense in my mind.

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Free Write- Song of The Week

My choice today is once again my song of the week, Christina Aguilera's Voice Within. The song screams introspection through each word and speaks to me in some many ways. Her voice and lyrics suck you and I can honestly say each time I hear the song my soul screams out, it's easier said then done. In the song she says life is a journey and that it is with so many loops and levels but you have to find yourself because you came in this world alone and eventually we will all leave alone. It's a scary thought but it's he truth, enjoy the song I hope it up lifts you as much as it does for me.

Lyrics:

Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it’s alright
Your tears will dry, you’ll soon be free to fly

When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:
When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’re gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul

Chorus

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you’re learning
You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know
(be strong)
You’ll break it
(hold on)
You’ll make it
Just don’t forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can’t do
No one can stop you, you know that I’m talking to you

Chorus

Young girl don’t cry I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall

Connection

Music is a world of no limitations, and that is why I become so in-golfed with it when I'm depressed. As I've said before and I'll say it again it is the primary escape of my life and world. you know there always so much a person can take, and with me a little is a lot no limits. I've been working on how I deal with my surrounding and the people doing some self-therapy of my own. It's like you can try and try but you never get anywhere but I refuse to be left behind because I can't tame my anger. The picture to the left represents my turning my music on and turning my back on any nonsense the world has to offer in a negative way.
Although I have made major changes in my life I sometimes feel as if I've lost myself in the process and who I am as a free spirited person. But, my music always brings me back and makes me realize that through all my frustration and turmoil of my life I'm a great person. I may not be perfect but parts of me are amazing and I'm sticking to it.

Mentor Meeting

I once again did not get the chance to sit down with my mentor, Mr. Egan, but I will write about the thing I'm waiting to converse about. First, I must say Egan's opinion really counts to me, so I really want to ask him if he thinks I should go into nursing. It seems like a great idea but it isn't one of my dreams to be a nurse. I'm only interested because realistically nurse make great pay and they're always in demand, but what ever happen to my dreams? I think those were washed away when adult life hit the scene of my life. It's all about how much money you can get and save these days and I must say I'm on that band wagon all the way. What do you think?