Song of The Week: COMMENT!

This song to ahold of me this week because I love who I am and I will never "FAKE THE FUNK". Her song bring a calm spirit upoon me that I believe everyone will enjoy.

Sometimes I shave my legs and sometimes I don't
Sometimes I comb my hair and sometimes I won't
Depend on how the wind blows I might even paint my toes
It really just depends on whatever feels good in my soul

I'm not the average girl from your video
and I ain't built like a supermodel
But, I learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen
I'm not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I'm wearing I will always be India Arie

When I look in the mirror and the only one there is me
Every freckle on my face is where it's supposed to be
And I know my creator didn't make no mistakes on me
My feet, my thighs, my lips, my eyes; I'm lovin' what I see

I'm not the average girl from your video
and I ain't built like a supermodel
But, I learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen
I'm not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I'm wearing I will always be India Arie

Am I less of a lady if I don't wear pantyhose?
My mama said a lady ain't what she wears but, what she knows
But, I've drawn a conclusion, it's all an illusion, confusion's the name of the
game
A misconception, a vast deception
Something's gotta change
Don't be offended this is all my opinion
ain't nothing that I'm sayin law
This is a true confession of a life learned lesson I was sent here to share with
y'all
So get in where you fit in go on and shine
Clear your mind, now's the time
Put your salt on the shelf
Go on and love yourself
'Cuz everything's gonna be all right

I'm not the average girl from your video
and I ain't built like a supermodel
But, I Learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen
I'm not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I'm wearing I will always be India Arie

Keep your fancy drinks and your expensive minks
I don't need that to have a good time
Keep your expensive car and your caviar
All I need is my guitar
Keep your Kristal and your pistol
I'd rather have a pretty piece of crystal
Don't need your silicon I prefer my own
What God gave me is just fine

I'm not the average girl from your video
and I ain't built like a supermodel
But, I learned to love myself unconditionally
Because I am a queen
I'm not the average girl from your video
My worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
No matter what I'm wearing I will always be India Arie

Death Before Honor (Connection)

Another life was taking in Lindenwold this week, and not only should it be an eye opener, it should be a reality check for those who think life is all fun and games. On Wednesday night Dizon Jackson was killed in front of the 2800 building in Arborwood, by someone he called his "boy", "friend". His death, like David's, should make people realize that they need to get their life together because anyday can be your last. Dizon was not the type of person you would think someone would kill. The picture to the left is how we all remember him. That smile never left his face, and he always had some type of joke to tell. Ever since I met him I would always call him Loveles, the pinguin off of happy feet. He hated it so much but loved because it was different. He will forever be missed. My connection to the story is that his death should be sort of theraputic for those who don't realize their rights from wrongs and who feel they have a future in this life. I just hope people open their eyes and get their lives together before everyone is gone.
R.i.P Loveles

A Week W/O Egan!

Well unfortuately during one of the best weeks ever Egan was on the Senior Trip having the time of his life with my fellow Seniors. But once he got back it was back to buisiness, but we still didn't get to sit down and have a one on one meeting. We agreed that we'd definatily sit dwn next week and discuss the progress of my presentation and fill him in on all my exciting new info. So I pretty sure next blog will be full of great thing that will come from our talk. STAY TUNED! I have so much to tell him I hope he's as excited as I am.

Sponsor Flop x2

So I haven't been in touch with my sponser so lately so I took matters into my own hands and asked one of most talented boys in LHS. The name is Mr. Darrius Green and he's helping me pull my entire presentation together.

It all started at the spring Choir Concert, as we waited around the paino for our turn to come I began singing a song that I wrote. Everyone was so hype and started to clap, and Darrius had some music juices flowing through his mind. The next day I asked him if he would help me with my presenation and he  kindly excepted. So I meet with him this week in Mr. Flix's in school studio. He let me hear a beat he created to my song, and it fit perfect! I left him wit a mission to create a brigde hook for the song and he surely got to work. Throughout the week we discussed how the agenda for the presentation should be, and we're definiatly on the same page. I must say its finally coming all together and im excited for everyone to see it.

Sponsor Flop

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Song of The Week: COMMENT!

This song is powerful with every word , it expresses how life could suddenly end and its extremely captivating. I don't have much to say because it brings me to tears, so I want you to watc and leave your comments on how you tink you can improve as a person. Please embrace the lyrics and think of recent tragedies.ENJOY =)

CROSSROAD LYRICS

Bone]
Bone Bone Bone Bone.. Bone.. Bone.. Bone.. Bone.. Bone
Now tell me whatcha gonna do
when there ain't no where to run (tell me what)
(When judgment comes for you, when judgment comes for you)
And whatcha gonna do
when there aint no where to hide (tell me what)
When judgment comes for you (Cause it's gonna come for you)

[Bizzy]
Let's all bring it in for Wally, Eazy sees uncle Charlie
Little Boo, God's got him and I'm gonna miss everybody
I only roll with Bone my gang look to where they lay
When playing with destiny, plays too deep for me to say
Lil' Layzie came to me, told me if he should decease well then please
Bury me by my grand-grand and when you can, come follow me

[Layzie]
God bless you working on a plan to Heaven
Follow the Lord all 24/7 days, GOD is who we praise
even though the devil's all up in my face
But he keeping me safe and in my place, say grace
For the case to race with a chance to face the judge
And I'm guessing my soul won't budge
Grudge because there's no mercy for thugs
Oh what can I do it's all about our family and how we roll
Can I get a witness let it unfold
We living our lives to eternal our soul aye-oh-aye-oh

[Krayzie]
Prayyyyyyy, and we pray and we pray, and we pray, and we pray
Everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday
and we pray, and we pray, and we pray, and we pray
Still we laced, now follow me roll stroll
Whether its hell or its Heaven
Come let's go take a visit of people that's long gone
they rest Wally, Eazy, Terry, Boo
It's steadily creeping up on the family
Exactly how many days we got lasting
While you laughin we're passing, passing away
So y'all go rest y'all souls
Cause I know I'ma meet you up at the crossreads
Y'all know y'all forever got love from them Bone Thugs baby

[Wi$h]
Now Eazy's long gone
Really wish he would come home
But when it's time to die
Gotta go bye bye
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All a thug could do is cry, cry
Why they kill my dog and man
I miss my uncle Charles y'all
and he shoudn't be gone, in front of his home
What they did to Boo was wrong
Oh so wrong, oh so wrong
Gotta hold on gotta stay strong
When the day comes
Better believe Bone got a shoulder you can lean on (lean on)

Hey and we pray, and we pray, and we pray, and we pray
everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday
and we pray, and we pray, and we pray, and we pray
everday, everyday, everyday, everyday

[Chorus - Layzie and Krayzie]
See you at the crossroads, crossroads, crossroads
So you won't be lonely
See you at the crossroads, crossroads, crossroads
So you won't be lonely
See you at the crossroads, crossroads
So you won't be lonely
See you at the crossroads, crossroads

[Bizzy]
And I'm gonna miss everybody
And I'm gonna miss everybody when I'm gone
And I'm gonna miss everybody
And I'm gonna miss everybody
And I'm gonna miss everybody

[Layzie]
Living in a hateful world sending me straight to Heaven
That's how we roll
Living in a hateful world sending me straight to Heaven
That's how we roll
Living in a hateful world sending me straight to Heaven
That's how we roll
And I'm asking the good LORD with a sigh
It's I he told me we live to die

[Krayzie]
What's up with murder y'all, see my little cousin was hung
Somebody was really wrong, everybody want to test us dawg
Then Miss Sleazy set up Eazy to fall, you know why we sinnin
And Krayzie intended on ending it when it ends
Wanna come again, again and again
Now tell me whatcha gonna do

[Wi$h]
Can somebody anybody tell me why?
Hey, can somebody anybody tell me why we die, we die?
I dont wanna die

Ohhh so wrong
Ohhhhh wrong
Ohhh so wrong
Ohhhhh wrong

[Chorus - repeat gradually fading away]

Connection: Gone So Soon

On May 12, 2011 a youg man by the name of David Rivera was killed on the streets of Camden, and it tore the town of Lindenwold apart. David Rivera was more than a long time friend he was my family and words can't explain how I felt to hear that he passed away. People never realize how precious and short life can be until something horrilbe like this happens. David was a funny,silly, outgoing kid , most know his sister and cousin Marisol Muldrow and Elena Rivera. He didn't deserve what happened to him but they say your story is already written from birth, it's just sad it ad to happen so soon. Most may say he's in a better place but to me hes not. He didn't suffer from an illness, he was elderly, nor was he sick, but he his only problem was the people he surrounded himself with. He happened to fall victim because those so called friends. Im not judging but I loved that young an with all my heart and I call for justice and peace between our fellow neighbors and friends. It's time for the madness to end! It's been really hard getting through this time so my music bring me back to reality because this seems so unreal. I listen to his favorite songs, peaceful r&b, just something I can call my therapy for the moment. I'm glad I do have music our I don't know where my head would be. All I keep saying is this is crazy, but I guess we'll all have to come to realize to ceris what we have now because it ca be taken at anytime.Rest In Peace David!!

Chat W/ Egan

So once again on this Senior Project journey I stopped to see my good old mentor, Mr Egan. I had to put the pressure on him a little because he hasn't been commenting as he should, although I have seen his effort and I hope he keeps it up. Egan and I discussed my future plans for college yet again and he keeps encouraging me to stay on task and keep pushing for a positive and effective goal. I also expressed to him how I was kind of falling into the old " senioritis" but he quickly gave me sharp look that read , I think not young lady. I gave him a smile and respond, I wont fall to soon. Sitting with him made me realize that sooner than later I won't have him to run to with my educational issues nor my lifes issuse much longer. But what I do know is that i'll always have is number handy when it's an emergency.Gosh, I'm sure goig to miss that man.

Catch Up W/ Egan

Well, of course Egan and I had a great conversation/sit down as usual. I finally got to express my future plans for schooling to him , and of course he was ready to talk. I expressed to him that I was really trying to look into nursing school, but I would eventually want to return to school for what I really want to pursue, psychology. Egan then responded by telling me about Camden County College's nursing program and how it was one of the best in the state. Except the fact that the program has now been terminated and transferred to Rowans campus. But, as we further explored the opportunities I may have in the medical field, he asked me why I really wanted to go into nursing. I then explained to him that the economy is extremely rough right now so I wanted to start out with a career and job that would always be in demand, and then return to school with a good job and remain stable in life as I continued to get a bachelor's in social working. Mr. Snyder and Egan were very helpful in directing me in the right direction to further understand exactly what I wanted to do. For instance, although I never really saw myself as a nurse when Egan asked me why I wanted to go into social working, I answered because I would love to help people. He then said that I would be doing the same thing in the nursing field , but the crazy part was I never looked at it that way. Over all it was a great meeting and still has me thinking.

Connection-Inspiration

Yesterday Mr. Abrams took us on a Senior Project inspirational trip to the Lindenwold park, and although the park is right behind school it was the best trip ever. But, of course with a class trip comes an assignment , and I must say this assignment is one of his best ideas yet. See on this simple exploration Mr. Abrams wanted us to find and explain some type of connection we found in our surroundings to our Senior Project topic. I took this assignment full force excluding myself from groups and really taking the time to walk, explore my thoughts, and imagine. But, the instant I stepped foot outside I had already had my mind made up, just this walk was my connection. What I mean by that is that a walk for me is my releasing therapy. For instance, when we began our small journey I instantly thought of the old days when my anger would take a hold on me , I would immediately leave and start walking and eventually any anger I had would go away. So the got me thinking, y whole life I've created my own inner therapy because the walks that I would take was just as therapeutic of the music that I listen to to pull me through. My comfort I once thought I could only find in music , I had then found in just a simple walk. Music therapy  is now walking therapy in a sense, and I'm satisfied with my new discovery. Also, I would like to explain what the picture to the above represents. The picture shows my worst fear deep water, although it seem beautiful it is the scariest thing in the world to me. But, I must say although I am extremely terrified of the ocean and deep water, I think it is one of the most peaceful and mind blowing views known to mankind. The comparison is somewhat weird but it makes tons of sense in my mind.

Sponsor Trip

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Free Write- Song of The Week

My choice today is once again my song of the week, Christina Aguilera's Voice Within. The song screams introspection through each word and speaks to me in some many ways. Her voice and lyrics suck you and I can honestly say each time I hear the song my soul screams out, it's easier said then done. In the song she says life is a journey and that it is with so many loops and levels but you have to find yourself because you came in this world alone and eventually we will all leave alone. It's a scary thought but it's he truth, enjoy the song I hope it up lifts you as much as it does for me.

Lyrics:

Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it’s alright
Your tears will dry, you’ll soon be free to fly

When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:
When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’re gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul

Chorus

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you’re learning
You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know
(be strong)
You’ll break it
(hold on)
You’ll make it
Just don’t forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can’t do
No one can stop you, you know that I’m talking to you

Chorus

Young girl don’t cry I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall

Connection

Music is a world of no limitations, and that is why I become so in-golfed with it when I'm depressed. As I've said before and I'll say it again it is the primary escape of my life and world. you know there always so much a person can take, and with me a little is a lot no limits. I've been working on how I deal with my surrounding and the people doing some self-therapy of my own. It's like you can try and try but you never get anywhere but I refuse to be left behind because I can't tame my anger. The picture to the left represents my turning my music on and turning my back on any nonsense the world has to offer in a negative way.
Although I have made major changes in my life I sometimes feel as if I've lost myself in the process and who I am as a free spirited person. But, my music always brings me back and makes me realize that through all my frustration and turmoil of my life I'm a great person. I may not be perfect but parts of me are amazing and I'm sticking to it.

Mentor Meeting

I once again did not get the chance to sit down with my mentor, Mr. Egan, but I will write about the thing I'm waiting to converse about. First, I must say Egan's opinion really counts to me, so I really want to ask him if he thinks I should go into nursing. It seems like a great idea but it isn't one of my dreams to be a nurse. I'm only interested because realistically nurse make great pay and they're always in demand, but what ever happen to my dreams? I think those were washed away when adult life hit the scene of my life. It's all about how much money you can get and save these days and I must say I'm on that band wagon all the way. What do you think?